Ever Been At Rock Bottom?



Psalm 119:71

King James Version (KJV)
71 It is good for me that I have been afflicted; that I might learn thy statutes.




I was in my early thirties~ a dedicated wife and mother and trying my best to follow Christ. My husband was excelling in his career. I had the house I had always dreamed of sitting on the street I had longed to live on since I was a young girl. I was madly in love with my husband and my children. Yet~ inside I was on a trip nobody wants to take. I was heading to a breakdown that most of us resist. It was the breakdown of my self-sufficiency. 


It was not pretty at all~ rock bottom hurts when you land. However~ it was just where God wanted me to be. I am a perfectionist at heart and pretty dog-gone good at it. I had somehow built my home on shifting sand because I was trying to do it in my own strength. Yet ~ at rock bottom I found God was my ROCK at the bottom of that cold ~lonely pit. This was a turning point in my life. I had to realize that God was who I needed to depend upon rather than my feeble efforts in my own strength.

God taught me many things at rock bottom. He taught me that I am not in control. He knew what was best for my husband~ and my children. DO I have this mastered? I wish I could say I did. But by golly~ I have come a very long way. It truly is freeing to just let go and let God.  Yet~ It was the hardest thing this control-freak ever did.

I have to admit~ I did not feel very spiritual at rock bottom~ it was very painful. I even heard many reasons for why I was where I was from well meaning friends. But the truth is God wanted me to really understand that He was big enough to handle my little world without me. That I could enjoy life and    be free to enjoy the ride. Funny thing happened as God began to pull me up out of the pit at rock bottom. My marriage became sweeter~ my children learned to trust God for themselves and I had the greatest spiritual developments. I finally learned that I could really~ truly ~ honestly (not just say it) trust God without manipulating or stacking the deck with just the right environment and circumstances.

The Heavenly Father is well pleased with what He intends to bring out of such a  painful process. I can honestly say I have learned the secret to a God-dependant life. I would not want to live life any other way.

Hope you have a happy Monday~ it is raining here! WOO-HOO!





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Heart To Heart And Hand In Paw

Heart to Heart, Hand in Paw is a true tale of faith and the healing bonds of animals. Luanne’s story shares how our pets can love, comfort and teach us as we take our own journey through life.


Imagine my surprise when one of my bloggy friends asked me if I would consider reviewing her book. My love for my chickens assured her that I would enjoy her book~  and that I did.
Peggy Frezon is an author of a memoir Dieting With My Dog. She is an award -winning author and pet columnist, she is a regular contributor to Guidepost and Angels on Earth magazines, a staff writer at Be the Change for Animals. She is also a blog friend with a wonderful blog~ Peggy's Pet Place. 


This book is the story of her mother's life ( Luanne) and is dedicated to her. It was Luanne's dream to live a simple life. Much like our dream when we built Farming On Faith. They built their own home and learned to live off the land ~ filling their land with all sorts of critters. I couldn't help but laugh along the way while imaging some of the same things we faced building our own home. I loved hearing all the tales of the animals she adopted and helped along the way.

They soon realize that homesteading is not without its challenges for sure~ as Peggy put it so well.

  • The dog has separation anxiety.
  • The goose is afraid of water.
  • There is a fox in the pigpen.
  • There are raccoons in the hen house.
  • And the truck has slide into the pond.

My favorite part is how the building did not get done as planned and Luanne ~ a teacher~ lived in a school bus through an entire winter -no less. What a women!
Luanne learned that through the bonds she formed with God's creatures she found healing. She shares how our pets can offer us love, comfort , healing and even teach us a lesson or two along our journey through this life. 

Peggy~ thank you for sharing your mom's story with me. I so enjoyed reading your book. What an incredible story.

You can visit Peggy by clicking here~



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What Can We Do About The Drought?



Not only can I not listen to the news without hearing about the drought but I can't walk across my yard without hearing the crunching under my feet. It is taking all the water we can muster to keep our garden~ new trees and flowers alive.

Here are the new statistics from the USDA and the United States Drought Monitor:

   55% of the continental U.S. is now under drought conditions
   1,297 counties have been declared national disaster areas
   88% of the corn crop is located in areas impacted by the drought
   87% of the soybean crop is located in areas impacted by the drought
There hasn't been a worse drought in the U.S. since the 1950's


I don't know about you but after hearing the gloom and doom long enough I get tired of it. I just hate laying down and declaring~ whoa is me. What can we do?

Well it is true that it will be bad news for consumers. First ~ I say PRAY for rain. I am rejoicing that we had a good rainfall last night. Second of all let us not forget that God is on the throne. Then ~ get moving!

There are not many foods that will not be impacted due to excessive heat and drought conditions. The wheat crops have failed. Milk production is down ~ meat prices will rise because of increasing feed cost and fruit and vegetables will go up because of smaller than normal harvest.

I did not just restate the facts to depress you. We have time to prepare for this. You know like God warned Joseph to prepare for the coming drought in the land. There are things we can do to prepare ahead. Much of what is on the shelves is from 2011 harvest. Start stock piling now. While meat and dairy products will start rising within the next couple of months~ many other increases won't reach the store until next year. (2012 harvest)


Here are some places to begin~

Load up on fresh produce when you find a good deal~ freezing or canning until next year.
Stock pile on cheese and butter when it is on sale. It will freeze just fine.
Meat prices are experiencing a temporary dip right now~ Fill your freezer.
Freeze a good supply of flour.
Stock pile now canned goods from the 2011 harvest.
Combine sales and coupons to stock pile a supply of cereal, pasta, oatmeal and dried non-perishables.


What to stock pile~
1.     Flour, 
Cereal, 
Dried pasta, 
Bread, 
Tortillas, 
Crackers, 
Chips/Pretzels
2.     Cornmeal, 
Corn starch, 
Popcorn, 
Soda, 
Any foods that contain corn syrup.(Don't eat a lot of this but need some for Holiday baking)
3.     Cheese, 
Powdered milk, 
Powdered buttermilk, 
Sweetened condensed milk, 
Evaporated milk, 
Butter, 
Eggs, 
Mayonnaise
4.     Meat, (fresh) 
Canned meats, 
Chicken and beef broth
5.     Fruits, (fresh, frozen, canned and dried) 
Veggies, (fresh, frozen and canned) 
Canned/bottled tomato products, (sauce, paste, salsa, etc.) 
Beans, (dried and canned)

6.         Soy milk, 
Soy sauce, 
Other products containing soy






The grocery stores  often mark down meat the day before the new ad runs and when the expiration date is up. This is still good meat and needs to be cooked soon or frozen. I have been buying my meat like this and it cuts the price in half.


We don't have to be fearful~ we need to trust God!  This too shall pass~ keep the faith.

“Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, 
the evidence of things not seen.” Hebrews 11:1 KJV





Welcome~ So glad you stopped by!

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Do You Ever Fuss At God?



Good Morning Blog Friends~
I have been so bad about blogging lately. The purpose of my blog has always been to point others to my Lord and Saviour with all the little mundane issues of life thrown in for good measure. I have just been dry lately~ like a juice box sucked in with no air left inside. I think all the life has been sucked right out of me. Do you ever feel like that?

I heard a message this morning and the teacher said sometimes God test His people to see if they are what they say they are. You know like when you go buy a new sofa and you sit on it and try it out. Sometimes it is easy when hard times come one at a time~ well not easy~ but do-able. Yet~ when  trials and tests come right after another you can't do anything but realize that without God you are nothing. I am confessing~ I am nothing without God.


The new school supplies have hit the isles~ my smarty pants husband has gone back full force getting a new school year ready~ but I am not ready for this school year. Last year the year started with the sudden death of my father~ led by one trial after another. I finished up the school year with the wedding of my baby girl. Don't get me wrong~ we love Jacob but I grieved so hard when another daughter moved clear across the country.  I have spent all summer ~ stay-cationing and trying to restore myself in God's Word. BUT ~ I am confessing I am still not ready to gear up for another year. Sigh**** But ready or not here it comes.

This school year is starting with the news our new son-in-love will be deploying to war.  This momma feels a little sucker punched. Please add him to your prayer list~ as well as all our men and women that are serving our country. Funny how it gets more personal when it is our loved one that is  heading to war. Somehow we forget that every person fighting is someones' loved one. Hannah has decided to come home until he returns next summer.

The basement is almost finished ~ so Hannah will have her own little apartment. We are happy she has decided to return home. We already have plans to head to the Amish bulk store to stock up for Jacob's monthly care packages.

Do you ever fuss at God? Well mine is more like grumbling maybe.  Like~ asking why? Or maybe it goes more like this~ "God you said you will never place more on me than I can handle~ are you sure you are paying attention? Because this looks like more than I can handle."

 Much like Mary and Martha did when they fussed at God for not being soon enough to heal Lazarus~ I fuss too. Healing does begin when we realize God does receive our fussing.

How did Jesus respond to Mary and Martha venting their emotional heartbreak?  He did not get angry with them or punish them~ He cried with them. You see our God is touched with our humanness. When we walk that cemetery ground~ He walks with us. He cries with us. There was no judgement only tears of empathy. When we feel like life is more than we can handle~ He carries us. When our strength is all gone ~ He makes our feet as hinds' feet. When we are the weakest ~ He makes us strong! We simply have to turn it all over to Him.

Psalm 56:8 (KJV)

Thou tellest my wanderings: put thou my tears into thy bottle: are they not in thy book?


Whatever you are facing today~ God cares. He sees your tears~ He hears you when you cry. We can rest in Him when we face the trials of this life.



1 Peter 5:7 (KJV)
 Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.






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Why Does God Test His People?



Deuteronomy 8:2

King James Version (KJV)
And thou shalt remember all the way which the Lord thy God led thee these forty years in the wilderness, to humble thee, and to prove thee, to know what was in thine heart, whether thou wouldest keep his commandments, or no.




Well according to this verse He does. No one likes to be tested~ so why would God test His people, the Israelites? 


They were held in bondage for 430 years. When the mighty Pharaoh let them go he changed his mind and sent soldiers to attack them. Then the children had to face consequences for wrong decisions and were lost in the desert for forty years. They were pushed beyond their limits and began crying out to God with questions. They even questioned why they left Egypt in the first place~ a place of slavery, cruelty and starvation. 


You may be asking what does this have to do with me?  Well God tells us in His Word that were are to look to his chosen people as our example~ Egypt is a picture of the fallen world who does not want God. 


So why were they allowed to be tested? For their good and for His glory. God wanted the chosen people to know that they could trust Him. He wanted them to know the heart of God and to understand that they were loved and treasured. To understand that with God they were capable when they put their trust in Him.


I think the greatest blessing that has come from my testings is that I now understand that I am so weak on my own but in God I am strong. 


This morning in my devotion time I read this~


"When Satan test us or when we test God, it serves no purpose. But when God tests us, the testing is for us to show us what is in us. He doesn't shame us. I believe it has to be a gift of love-His own divine show-and-tell. He is showing  us we are strong.....in Him.  ----Sheila Walsh


I was hoping after the last school year life would give a bit of a reprieve. But it does not seem to be so. It already seems to be starting off with many uncertainties. Yet~ my heart is at peace knowing that we can trust the all seeing eye of our Father. We can trust His all loving hand and we can rest in the assurance that He is in control of all things. He sees the big picture.


Now that is reason to rest in Him today.



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You Need A Friend?






I had the privilege of hearing Lisa Whelchel speak last fall. Now if you don't  know who that is ~ you are still a baby. She was a star on my favorite sit-com back in the 80's when I was a teenager. I know I prefer to call myself vintage not old.

Lisa played Blair on the Facts of Life. The problem was she spent her youth as a movie star lonely for real life friends~ which made her "needy."  She grew up not knowing how to pick "safe friends." That led to many hurtful experiences as she shares in many of her books.

She accepted Christ as her Saviour and He did a work in her life. Her story really is one to read~ I promise you that. I have read many of her books about her homeschooling journey to her book about picking safe friends. God sent her on a journey of learning to have grownup friendships.


Do you have "safe friends."  I have to admit I have a handful~ I am blessed.

“If you have two friends in your lifetime, you're lucky. 

If you have one good friend, you're more than lucky.” 
                                                                                            ― S.E. Hinton


 I remember a time in my life when I was lonely for a good friend. My sister has always been my best friend but she lived over an hour away and we were in different seasons of life. I was a mom of small children and she was in the upper teen years. I began to pray for friends and God heard my prayers. Friends just make life more simple to bear. 

How do you know if a person is a safe person? I mean the kind of friend you can share your darkest hours with and know she loves you enough not to tell a soul. 

First of all~ a safe friend is a person who has blown it and has been given mercy and grace herself from the Heavenly Father. She is willing to hand out mercy and grace to others. She know how to give and receive it. 

I have several friends that go to different churches than I do. In fact most of my closest friends do. However~ they take God at His Word and they love and follow Jesus. Even though they have chosen a different path than I have~ they respect me and let me be me. 

I have to say the greatest trait that a "safe friend" has is that they are not judgmental people. If someone is always judging others or even themselves~RUN  for the hills as fast as your little flip-flops will take you.

( That reminds me of a Grammy story. My Boston was reading me a story from his Jesus book on facetime the other night and he told me that Jesus wears flip-flops. That is just the cutest!)

Don't you dare risk exposing  your humanity to a girlfriend that can't accept imperfection. 

A "safe friend" will trust God to make the changes in her life and the lives around her. She will not manipulate or try to control or guilt you to be what she thinks you should be. She will not try to fix you but leave you in the hands of the Master Potter.  She just knows that it is God's job not hers.

A "safe friend" will live out her life before you and trust God with all the rest. 

If you need a "safe friend" ~ pray for her. I know God will answer your prayer way beyond what you can imagine. 

For all my sweet friends~ you are a blessing in my life!

 Iron sharpeneth iron; so a man sharpeneth the countenance of his friend.




Proverbs 27:17 (KJV)



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Take My Voice~







This morning I sent my Caleb and my nephew~ Coltin off to church camp. I got up at o' dark thirty to send them off. I told them I am expecting God to do great things this week and He had a special message for them and I believe it. Please pray God will work in the hearts of our teen group this week at Camp Sagmount! For the first time since our honeymoon we are home alone this week~ Bittersweet!


SO as I am wide awake I decided to read the Daily Bread this morning.


(Taken from the Daily Bread)
Dr. Deb Roy, a researcher and cognitive scientist with the Massachusetts Institute of Technology, recorded the first 3 years of his child’s life to learn how humans acquire language. He and his wife rigged their home with recording devices, which they used to collect over 200,000 hours of audio and video footage. Amassing, condensing, and editing the recordings enabled them to hear baby sounds like “gaga” evolve into words like “water.”


The devotion went on to ask~ what if someone recorded all the communication in your home? What would the study reveal?


I want my words to not only be seasoned with kindness but I want them to be full of wisdom. It is so easy to spout off our opinions or ideas before we think. SO many times it does way more damage than good. The Bible tells us a fool utters his mind ~ before hearing all the the details. The older I get the more I realize I don't have all the answers and it is just best to go to God. My opinions don't matter~ my way doesn't matter~ so is is just best to keep my ideas to myself. We can always point people to God's Word~ it is always right and it always has the answer.


Proverbs 18:13

King James Version (KJV)
13 He that answereth a matter before he heareth it, it is folly and shame unto him.


We can be so quick to talk about others when they are different than us or do things differently. God has convicted me of this and I have been working on it for a long while and have a long while to go. Did you know it is sin to devour one another with our word and opinions? (Even if we are having a family talk~ or talking with our best friend.) 

Ephesians 4:29

King James Version (KJV)
29 Let no corrupt communication proceed out of your mouth, but that which is good to the use of edifying, that it may minister grace unto the hearers.






Several years ago one of my children attended our Christian School for her high school years. She had been homeschooled most of her life and her siblings were homeschooled through all their school years. 

She overheard some of our closest friends talk about how strange homeschoolers were and that we march to our own drum. ( Don't get me wrong ~ we are strange and we do color outside of the box or we would not home school in the first place.)  Yet ~ hearing this did not edify or build her up or me for that matter. In fact she being a young girl, was discouraged that her momma's friends would feel this way about her mother.  Now I forgave those ladies and they are still my very good friends. Instead of getting angry with them I determined to not do the same thing. We~ "Christians" are so good at this. May God convict us. In this situation~ I instead asked God to reveal the times I had done this very thing out of foolishness. 

I hear it it with homeschool~ verses public school~ verses Christian school debates. I hear it with militant mothers~ verses relaxed parenting mothers. Friend ~can you hear me for just a minute?

 Let us stop and think that God does not make cookie cutter children. He gave us the parents we have for a reason. He gave us the children he wants us to have for a purpose. He has a plan for each of our lives. How about today we give each other a break and love each other instead of judging each other?

I promise you we will all look back and realize it is only the grace of God that made any of us successful in any area of our lives. You see our words have the power to build or destroy~ we choose how we will use them.

With God's help we can identify and transform our destructive speech into words of encouragement that are used to edify one another and impart grace to the hearers. 



Take my voice and let me sing
Always, only, for my King;
Take my lips and let them be
Filled with messages for Thee. —Havergal








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A Pocket Full Of Dreams


Happy Monday!
You can't see them well but we have had a momma and daddy geese raise their four babies on our pond. They have been here a couple of months. Each morning my Brian and I would watch from the porch while they taught those babies how to flap their wings and fly. It was such fun watching them play in the water. This week they took their flight away~ wish them well. Daddy Goose would not let me get close enough for a good picture~ he stood guard at all times.


After 10 days of staycationing I am back to normal routine. I sure miss my guy not being home but I enjoy getting back to a schedule. My Brian and I have a whole week alone next week to staycation again but this week is getting things put to order.

My Brian has been hard at work~ just look.

After building the house and trying to make a 10 acre pasture look like a yard we were exhausted.
We are just now finishing the basement. It is coming along nicely.

 This area will be a kitchen area so we are putting tile down. 



A Pocket Full Of Dreams~
This morning I read a devotion from Luci Swindoll. She shared a story about an eighty-seven year old woman who finished college and earned her degree. Her name was Anne Martindell.  She first started classes in 1932 but had to leave a year later. Her father~ a federal judge~ feared she'd be too educated to find a husband~ imagine that.

In the interim, she served as a U.S. ambassador to New Zealand, a New Jersey state senator and head of the U.S. Office of Foreign Disaster Assistance. She married and divorced two times~ had four children~ nine grandchildren~ and two great-grandchildren.  In 1996~ she began to feel a void in her life and decided to take the advice of a loved one to enroll in Smith's educational program for older women. She earned her diploma in 2002 and received an honorary doctorate at the same time. 

The founding director of the school told the reporter that when she first arrived at college she used a cane but just within weeks the cane disappeared and it was in no time she was revitalized. "There was a spring in her step and a gleam in her eye," the director said. 

Now that is what I call a pocket full of dreams. I had to do a little more research this morning~ always a homeschool mom.  She did not enter politics until her 50's~ she became an ambassador in her 60's~ earned a degree in her 80's and published a memoir titled, "Never Too Late" in her 90's. She thought of going to graduate school stating~ "That would be a good ticket to a job, I suppose," She died in 2008  at the age of 93.


Ok~ now if that is not the cure to any mid-life crisis I might be having.  Just imagine what the Lord can do with our pocket full of dreams if we allow Him to have them and use us. I am inspired now ~ how about you?


 If I ascend up into heaven, thou art there: 
if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there.
 (KJV) Psalm 139:8






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It's Not How We Started That Matters~




I have been so missing in action from my blog~ I have been staycationing and taking a bit of a break. We have been working in the garden~ sipping coffee on the porch and watching some old movies on the TMC. Just having a lazy summer and it sure has been nice.

This past month I have been trying to wrap up my father's affairs. It has been hard to say the least.  I loved my dad so much and 10 months after his sudden death~ it just does not feel any better. I don't think this deep hurt will ever go away. There is just something foundational that you loose when you loose a parent.

 My father had given his heart to Jesus but never got victory over his addition to the bottle. Going through his things has brought that sadness of my childhood and the broken pieces back to my memory. It was the dysfunction of this very relationship that led me to God and that broke the cycle of addiction and brokenness to my life. Jesus is the answer! He takes the broken pieces and makes them whole again. He picked my feet up out of the miry clay and placed them on the solid rock when I was just a child. Thank God for bus workers who care enough to reach the unreachable. I am so thankful that I never had to turn to addictions because I learned from the Word of God that He is able to make my paths straight. Yet~ it will always hurt because my father never had what I have.

While all my attempts to fix my dad never worked and I am so thankful that he accepted Jesus as his Saviour. Now he is whole and healed. He was a very talented man and his children loved him.

Hard times can make us miserable ~ or they can bring out the best in us.  We may or may not have chosen the circumstances that we find ourselves in or those that have shaped us into the person we are today. But I know that that we can make those circumstances better by simply aiming our attitude toward Heaven and seeking out every shred of joy that God has to give.

I don't have it all together but I am encouraged that I can walk each step knowing that God is in control of my life~ I have learned that I can trust Him.  Aren't you glad that the Bible does not say  to us, "Come unto me all ye that have it all together?"   I would be left out for sure.


Matthew 11:28 (KJV) 

Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.


 I gave my heart to Jesus 28 years ago.  I have made God the Lord over my life and it has been the most wonderful journey with my Lord. Through the hard times in life I have come to trust His divine hand. I am so thankful that it's not how we started that matters but rather how we end.


2 Timothy 4:7 (KJV) 

I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith:




Life has a way of knocking us down. Through this journey life has a way of getting messy at times. We are all bound to fall down but each time we get up again~ God has a way of teaching us another valuable lesson. God is real. He is on the throne. We can trust Him.

I want to say I have fought a good fight~ I have finished my course~ I have kept the faith.


Wisdom is making decisions today
 that you will be happy with tomorrow.



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