It's Not How We Started That Matters~

I have been so missing in action from my blog~ I have been staycationing and taking a bit of a break. We have been working in the garden~ sipping coffee on the porch and watching some old movies on the TMC. Just having a lazy summer and it sure has been nice.

This past month I have been trying to wrap up my father's affairs. It has been hard to say the least.  I loved my dad so much and 10 months after his sudden death~ it just does not feel any better. I don't think this deep hurt will ever go away. There is just something foundational that you loose when you loose a parent.

 My father had given his heart to Jesus but never got victory over his addition to the bottle. Going through his things has brought that sadness of my childhood and the broken pieces back to my memory. It was the dysfunction of this very relationship that led me to God and that broke the cycle of addiction and brokenness to my life. Jesus is the answer! He takes the broken pieces and makes them whole again. He picked my feet up out of the miry clay and placed them on the solid rock when I was just a child. Thank God for bus workers who care enough to reach the unreachable. I am so thankful that I never had to turn to addictions because I learned from the Word of God that He is able to make my paths straight. Yet~ it will always hurt because my father never had what I have.

While all my attempts to fix my dad never worked and I am so thankful that he accepted Jesus as his Saviour. Now he is whole and healed. He was a very talented man and his children loved him.

Hard times can make us miserable ~ or they can bring out the best in us.  We may or may not have chosen the circumstances that we find ourselves in or those that have shaped us into the person we are today. But I know that that we can make those circumstances better by simply aiming our attitude toward Heaven and seeking out every shred of joy that God has to give.

I don't have it all together but I am encouraged that I can walk each step knowing that God is in control of my life~ I have learned that I can trust Him.  Aren't you glad that the Bible does not say  to us, "Come unto me all ye that have it all together?"   I would be left out for sure.



 I gave my heart to Jesus 28 years ago.  I have made God the Lord over my life and it has been the most wonderful journey with my Lord. Through the hard times in life I have come to trust His divine hand. I am so thankful that it's not how we started that matters but rather how we end.