Psalm 119:71
King James Version (KJV)
71 It is good for me that I have been afflicted; that I might learn thy statutes.
I was in my early thirties~ a dedicated wife and mother and trying my best to follow Christ. My husband was excelling in his career. I had the house I had always dreamed of sitting on the street I had longed to live on since I was a young girl. I was madly in love with my husband and my children. Yet~ inside I was on a trip nobody wants to take. I was heading to a breakdown that most of us resist. It was the breakdown of my self-sufficiency.
It was not pretty at all~ rock bottom hurts when you land. However~ it was just where God wanted me to be. I am a perfectionist at heart and pretty dog-gone good at it. I had somehow built my home on shifting sand because I was trying to do it in my own strength. Yet ~ at rock bottom I found God was my ROCK at the bottom of that cold ~lonely pit. This was a turning point in my life. I had to realize that God was who I needed to depend upon rather than my feeble efforts in my own strength.
God taught me many things at rock bottom. He taught me that I am not in control. He knew what was best for my husband~ and my children. DO I have this mastered? I wish I could say I did. But by golly~ I have come a very long way. It truly is freeing to just let go and let God. Yet~ It was the hardest thing this control-freak ever did.
I have to admit~ I did not feel very spiritual at rock bottom~ it was very painful. I even heard many reasons for why I was where I was from well meaning friends. But the truth is God wanted me to really understand that He was big enough to handle my little world without me. That I could enjoy life and be free to enjoy the ride. Funny thing happened as God began to pull me up out of the pit at rock bottom. My marriage became sweeter~ my children learned to trust God for themselves and I had the greatest spiritual developments. I finally learned that I could really~ truly ~ honestly (not just say it) trust God without manipulating or stacking the deck with just the right environment and circumstances.
The Heavenly Father is well pleased with what He intends to bring out of such a painful process. I can honestly say I have learned the secret to a God-dependant life. I would not want to live life any other way.
Hope you have a happy Monday~ it is raining here! WOO-HOO!
I was in my early thirties~ a dedicated wife and mother and trying my best to follow Christ. My husband was excelling in his career. I had the house I had always dreamed of sitting on the street I had longed to live on since I was a young girl. I was madly in love with my husband and my children. Yet~ inside I was on a trip nobody wants to take. I was heading to a breakdown that most of us resist. It was the breakdown of my self-sufficiency.
It was not pretty at all~ rock bottom hurts when you land. However~ it was just where God wanted me to be. I am a perfectionist at heart and pretty dog-gone good at it. I had somehow built my home on shifting sand because I was trying to do it in my own strength. Yet ~ at rock bottom I found God was my ROCK at the bottom of that cold ~lonely pit. This was a turning point in my life. I had to realize that God was who I needed to depend upon rather than my feeble efforts in my own strength.
God taught me many things at rock bottom. He taught me that I am not in control. He knew what was best for my husband~ and my children. DO I have this mastered? I wish I could say I did. But by golly~ I have come a very long way. It truly is freeing to just let go and let God. Yet~ It was the hardest thing this control-freak ever did.
I have to admit~ I did not feel very spiritual at rock bottom~ it was very painful. I even heard many reasons for why I was where I was from well meaning friends. But the truth is God wanted me to really understand that He was big enough to handle my little world without me. That I could enjoy life and be free to enjoy the ride. Funny thing happened as God began to pull me up out of the pit at rock bottom. My marriage became sweeter~ my children learned to trust God for themselves and I had the greatest spiritual developments. I finally learned that I could really~ truly ~ honestly (not just say it) trust God without manipulating or stacking the deck with just the right environment and circumstances.
The Heavenly Father is well pleased with what He intends to bring out of such a painful process. I can honestly say I have learned the secret to a God-dependant life. I would not want to live life any other way.
Hope you have a happy Monday~ it is raining here! WOO-HOO!
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